Yesterday, my tears drop on my face. I feel so tired to continue what I should do. I don’t know why everything is messed up. At first I was really excited to get a job as a general manager on magazine project, everyone has a limit on excitement though, including me.
I am in the world where I should learn to be courageous, mature, and wise. It’s completely opposite to myself. I am who is still too childish if compared to my friends in college. My emotion can be up and down, unstably.I lost myself. I lost my mind when I should follow terms and condition living in an organization.
I decide to get out from one of organizations I join. I love the people I love the circumstance, but I lost myself when I join them. I miss me who if there is flowery words in mind she will immediately write them down on a paper. I lost my time to read what I want to read, I lost my time to go to bookshops. But, I want to ask myself, Should people encounter this condition? Lost 2 years to join organization to learn cooperating with people to learn organizing?